One year ago..

 A year ago yesterday our lives took quite the bumpy turn. Out of the blue my water broke at 23wks and I was devastated. It doesn't seem like that long ago..it seems like it could've been yesterday. I know it was about the most terrifying day of my life. Crying to my oldest that the boys couldn't come yet, they may not make it, it was way too early..and most of all WHY?? I'm sure I scared the crap out of her, she was only 12 but I was at a complete loss. I am so thankful that Hubby had happened to take that Monday off. Even if it did take forever to interupt his Captain America time at the movies with our son..LOL They still don't let me forget that! This time last year our world was turned upside down. But I was determined to do everything I could to keep the boys safe. By 7/26 we'd made it 24hrs and had started regaining some hope. Just maybe we could make it. We had to! While I am grateful I didn't have to miss my son's 1st day of Kindergarten, his birthday, our anniversary..whatever else would have fallen in the 11 weeks we needed to be in the hospital, I would do anything to have kept them baking just a few more weeks. But God had different plans and here we are.We went from praying for their survival, just let them live...then with Ryan's arm, not knowing the damage caused by being stuck in the cervix so long, all the ups and downs of the NICU for so many months. And now the boys will be in in just over a week and by some great miracle they are perfectly healthy! Crawling, standing, trying to walk, teething like crazy :) I wouldn't trade our roller coaster journey for anything!