Breathe Easy Bryan..

I apologize in advance if this post is full of sorrow, maybe even anger and has really nothing to do with surrogacy but I have to get it out there. This has been one of the hardest weeks of my life..

Today, Heaven gained an Angel. Someone I don't even really know that well but have come to love like family. My IM's brother Bryan passed away today, he was only 21. He had CF like she does and had been on the lung transplant list for months. Recently even moved up to the top for the nation. But for some reason that must be beyond my grasp they just didn't come in time for him. Some don't seem to understand why this is affecting me so much..maybe it's partly just bringing back all the memories of losing my 1st IM so tragically. The 5th anniversary of her death is only a couple weeks away. I think this is the 1st time I've begun to understand why some surro's are ok with not having a close relationship to their IP's. But that's just not me. I love all of my surro-families and that includes their family too. Their Mom is such an amazing mother to them, I can't begin to tell you what a strong woman she is for all that she has been through with her children, and especially the past year in general. My heart breaks for her and what she is going through today.

It also happens to be the due date of my Angel Baby. I have no doubt that he and so many others are welcoming Bryan in Heaven. His fight is over and now he can breathe easy. Please pray for peace and strength for their family.

R.I.P. Bryan

Time to catch up!

It's been 2 months since I last posted :\ Ryan went home about a week after Liam did, just in time for his Mommy's birthday! He was there almost a week and he caught a regular cold but the poor little guy ended up back in ICU for a week from it. He's been home since &  is now completely wireless like his brother! They weigh around 13lbs and are doing great!! Aren't they the cutest little guys ever!!

At least one person or more has been sick in our house since they've been home so my 2 youngest and Hubby have yet to meet the boys. It saddens me, especially for my youngest who loves them dearly and only knows them from Mommy's belly & pictures. But I just can't take that chance. Hopefully this last round of meds will get Kailyn good as new and we can go see them soon. They have grown SO much since the last time even I saw them. It's hard to believe their 1/2 birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks!



Our "official" due date!

So today is our "official" due date! The boys are 14wks & 6 days old. It's hard to believe this time last year we were all anxious to get this process moving. Several months of delays and then finally our transfer in March. And here we are, my final journey is over and now one amazing couple have become two even more amazing parents!
 
♥ Liam is 8lbs 12oz & 20 3/4", completely wireless, 3oz every 3hrs. Went home at 13wks 3days old!
 
♥ Ryan is 9lbs 5oz & 20", coming down on his oxygen needs & hoping he grows new lung tissue soon, he's taking every other feed by bottle. Praying he's home very very soon!

Welcome Home Liam!

 That's right! Baby Liam got to go HOME today!!

I can't express how happy I am this day has finally come for Carrie & Craig! I got to visit with them in the NICU a while today and hold Liam without any plastic..lol



He has been off oxygen for about a week and on all bottles as well so they finally kicked him out. He's nearing 8lbs too! Precious Ryan still has a few weeks to go but hopefully he will be home with his brother soon! And Ryan is almost 9lbs!!

I still can't believe how much we've been through on our journey together this year. It's definitely been a roller coaster ride for us all but to see where they are now is just truly a miracle.

Just a comparison:

 Ryan-36hours old, less then 2lbs

Ryan- 3months old & almost 9lbs!

Oh MAN I've neglected the blog!!

It wouldn't let me comment on the post either :( I am on a mission to get Stacey up to the hospital and have her hold the boys now that they are holdable, huggable, and snuggable :) Especially Ryan, He LOVES snuggling in and being held tight! I am so glad that Stacey has updated y'all because I am sooooo bad about it! I'm so sorry everyone! Love and prayers to you all!

Here's a couple more recent pics of our little love bugs :)

Ryan is our chunky monkey at 6 lbs 8 oz and an adorable double chin!!! But Liam is only 3 oz behind him at 6 lbs 5 oz :)

Brothers :) Ryan was trying to hold Liam's hand!

RE: 10wks old post

  Since it won't let me comment on my own blog (!?)...

Thank you all, we are thrilled they are growing so big & healthy! Hopefully not too much longer before they are finally home. Unfortunately I haven't been able to hold the babies so no pics to share of  that :(

10 weeks old

 Ok I'm a day early but 2 updates in one week! It's a miracle! The boys are getting more holding time and best of all time together again! I'm sure Mommy is cherishing every moment of all the snuggle time :)

 Ryan is officially 6lbs and Liam is just 3oz shy of it! Carrie & Craig meant it when they said the boys would be 10lbs if they'd been term. Oy!

Here are a few recent pics of their lil punkins :)

(Liam is on L & 1st alone pic and Ryan on the R & 2nd alone pic)

 Snuggle time with Mommy :)