Friday, April 20, 2012

Breathe Easy Bryan..

I apologize in advance if this post is full of sorrow, maybe even anger and has really nothing to do with surrogacy but I have to get it out there. This has been one of the hardest weeks of my life..

Today, Heaven gained an Angel. Someone I don't even really know that well but have come to love like family. My IM's brother Bryan passed away today, he was only 21. He had CF like she does and had been on the lung transplant list for months. Recently even moved up to the top for the nation. But for some reason that must be beyond my grasp they just didn't come in time for him. Some don't seem to understand why this is affecting me so much..maybe it's partly just bringing back all the memories of losing my 1st IM so tragically. The 5th anniversary of her death is only a couple weeks away. I think this is the 1st time I've begun to understand why some surro's are ok with not having a close relationship to their IP's. But that's just not me. I love all of my surro-families and that includes their family too. Their Mom is such an amazing mother to them, I can't begin to tell you what a strong woman she is for all that she has been through with her children, and especially the past year in general. My heart breaks for her and what she is going through today.

It also happens to be the due date of my Angel Baby. I have no doubt that he and so many others are welcoming Bryan in Heaven. His fight is over and now he can breathe easy. Please pray for peace and strength for their family.

R.I.P. Bryan