Getting frustrated but still holding out hope

  Today's appt wasn't what we'd hoped for. There are 2 small cysts on the same ovary as before. Lining was measuring 10+ & my E2 levels were elevated (177). Carrie and I are both getting frustrated. The Lupron clearly states it can cause cyst formation..so why aren't we doing something different?? Not only that but it seems like they keep wanting me to go in during or just after my periods..well that's when you're lining is usually thicker then normal!? I still find it ironic my 1st couple go arounds at this I had to stay on meds longs because my lining wouldn't thicken up enough and now we're having the opposite problem. Not only that but in the next med I start is taken to thicken the lining...so why it has to be thin now just to get thicker is beyond me...
 About the time I'm ready to scream and yell (not that it'd do any good...) the Dr's office calls and says we aren't cancelled we're just going to prolong the cycle. So I'm to stay on Lupron, same dosage & go back in next week for a sono & repeat E2 to see if anything has changed. Waiting on them to call me back to schedule it.
 So for now we wait. And pray.

Dreams of Sugarplums

 Merry Christmas everyone! I had yet another dream last night. This time I was in the "IVF lab" which resembled more of a high school science classroom. Not sure why on earth I was there for this part but they'd just retrieved one egg from IM and were getting ready to  fertilize it. I was asking them why only one and they said they were going to do one at a time rather then retrieve a bunch at once. They put it in what looked like a miniature incubator..the egg looked like a bar of soap in this thing!? Anyhow before my eyes it starts transforming and ends up looking like an actual embryo in a matter of a seconds. That was all I can remember of the dream but I will take it as a good sign we get to retrieval this time :)
 On the meds front I've been back on Lupron about 1.5wks. And because of stopping BCP's I'm also on period #2 in as many weeks so I've officially gone a bit coo-coo over the past few days. Wednesday I go back in for another E2 check & sono. If all is clear (no cysts!, thin lining & low E2 levels ) then I get to start Estrace!!

Dreams can come true!

  So last night I had dream I had twin boys again. Granted they looked like my 1st set of surro-twins but it wasn't them because I remember thinking they looked similar. It was a fast dream but they were also bigger then L&W were. And one pooped on me while changing him..

 Anyhow..Lupron's going fine. This will be day #6 on it. Not quite as hormonal as last time but I've been getting teary eyed over Christmas commercials easily. I've been pretty sick too so maybe that's just overshadowing the side effects.

 Tomorrow is my last BCP already (hopefully the last one EVER)!!

Today is a GOOD Day!

  First of all, IM gets to go home from the hospital today. YAY!
And...my appt today went great!! As if being nervous wasn't bad enough I had to wait forever to get the sono done. Keep in mind my ovaries like to hide so much that the Dr asks for my help in finding them..lol No cysts to be seen though! Everything looked great and lining was only a 4 so that's a big improvement too. I start Lupron again tomorrow! Bring the hormones on!!
 Estimated time line would be to go back on 12/29 and have a recheck sono & E2 level. If all is well I'd start Estradiol that day. Carrie would start hers about a week later. Retrieval around the 19th and transfer around the 24th : )

 Please continue the prayers and ++ thoughts for us! Here's to making and baking a baby or two in January!! This would put us at an EDD of late Sept/Early Oct.

Just checkin' in

  I haven't posted in forever! Unfortunately there isn't really anything to update as of yet. Last week was IM & my Hubby's bdays! IM is in the hospital with pneumonia right now so any prayers & positive thoughts would be greatly appreciated : ) We need her home and healthy in hopes we can get to making some great eggs soon!
 Next Tuesday I go in to check up on the cyst from our last appt. I've been on BCP's for a month now so hopefully it's gone and we can get to cycling again! I'm not sure what the plan is if it's still there but at this point I'd sure be willing to let them aspirate it or whatever needs to be done to get rid of it. I will post again after the appts. Here's to NO more cyst, thin lining & low E2 levels!!

~Stacey~